It hurts when you could easily forget the memories we shared,
♥
the ones which I remembered even when I didn't want to.
Quotes.
'Missing you isn't the problem, it's wondering if you'll ever come back that's killing me.'
'Sometimes when you sacrifice something special, you’re not really losing it. You’re just passing it on. '
♥-/Increased.Heartbeat
'Missing you isn't the problem, it's wondering if you'll ever come back that's killing me.'
'Sometimes when you sacrifice something special, you’re not really losing it. You’re just passing it on. '
♥-/Increased.Heartbeat
ME.
I'm a simple girl living in a complicated world. I'm friendly and purple-struck. I get high at wrong times and I want to stay like that forever.
I don't do drugs, I'm not in any gang. I'm that normal girl who is on Facebook, Twitter and MSN. Fell out of love and lost trust in it. Fahrenheit's sizzling hot and they burn. I see flames shooting out already.
Screams.
Links .
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Grace.T@PCPS
JiaJun@YDC
Shermaine@BC Chinese
Tamilyn@MFSS
Vinny@MFSS
YongLing@MFSS
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009
bad days?
hmm...im having really bad bad bad days.... esp nowadays.
hmm...these two days...
yesterday,tuesday,
i skipped cca.
well,not the 1st time i skipped cca.
cca sucks anyways,
i cant even improve,go for what?
but i did not really skip.
hmmm...i was helping the animation mania stuff.
until quite late,decided not to go for cca.
suspected that there was theory.there was.
in the morning,tam gave me,yl and v and cally letter.
i read.
sadly,i wasnt touched...the least bit...
felt suicidal.
and weird.
it was touching but i wasnt touched.
whats worse,
i knew that it IS touching.
v and yl tell me go bff with tam again.
and leave andrea
i mean not so close to andrea
fuckingly pissed.
i dunno why...
v and yl 1-1 talk,
yl wasnt too happy about the letter too...
vinny was the only one happy,
say tam wei da.
yl told me....
in yl's letter,
she wrote:probably,you are right,i shldnt be cutting btwn u and v
when [according to yl] yl didnt tell her anything.
v was quite pissed after reading yl's letter.
she so called scolded yl.
yl didnt care.(for once)
she herself was surprised.
den in art,we did the animation the stuff...
me,t,v and yl were chatting tgt.
wrong.
t,v and yl were chatting tgt.
they sort of walked around.
den i was behind.
hmm,they didnt even know that i was there.
very very upset.
went to andrea there.
she comforted me.
after a LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG ten minutes,
LONG until,words cant describe it.
it seemed a thousand years.
although it was only a ten minute.
then they finally know that i wasnt there.
vinny found out...
tam was talking halfway when she found it out.
VERY VERY VERY VERY dissapointed with tamilyn.
they tried to get me away from andrea.
WHATTHEHECK?
they forgot me,
den want take me away..
WHO AM I TO THEM?
A HARMLESS MOTHER FUCKER WHO THEY CAN TALK TO WHENEVER THEY NEED A SHIT?
BULLSHIT.
B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T.
VERY ANGRY.
tried to smile.
i did one that looked very very very real
crap.
then t,v,yl and me stayed back for the animation thinggy.(do extra)
t and v and hweeting was tgt,
like that oni.
den i on my phone.
FUCK!
too late!
jiajun smsed me,she was in amk hub...
lol!she skipped school...i guess?
WALAO!
i jitao chiong there,she go le,
so i go home.
sian luhhs.
why i so stupid?
haizz.....
made qinghao as my korkor.
yl talked to me,told me her probs.
TODAY,
yl was back with vinny.
they were like asking me to go back to the group of whatever clique blah blah blah.
no fucking shit,i dont go back there!
whatthehell.
at least,i need time bahh~
they say it isnt the same without me.
bullshit.
a LONG ten minutes u know!
you all are still surviving arent you?
if you all think that you all would NEVER EVER pangseh and forget me again,
THEN WHY DID YOU FOUND OUT THAT I WASNT THERE TEN MINUTES LATER?
if you all think that andrea is a liar who wouldnt do me any good,
THEN WHY WAS ANDREA THE ONLY PERSON IN CLASS I FELT THAT I COULD TURN TO,WHEN I
FELT EMO AND SAD?
if you all think that andrea wasnt good enough for me
AND WHY DID ANDREA NEVER SAY A WORD ABOUT ME PANGSEHHING HER TO GO WITH YOU ALL?
IM USING HER BEFORE.
SHE KNEW IT BUT DIDNT SAY ANYTHING.
IM WAY WORSE THAN HER.
WAY WAY WAY WORSE.
IF YOU ALL THINK THAT SHE WOULDNT MAKE A GREATER FRIEND THAN TAMILYN,(no offence to tamilyn)
YOU ALL ARE W-R-O-N-G.
she proved you all wrong.
she proved me wrong.
she let me know that i wasnt alone when i didnt have you guys around me.
she let me understand that someone cares about me,even if the whole world condemned me.
LETS SEE.
WHO WAS THE ONLY ONE I COULD EVER EVER EVER TURN TO WHEN I NEEDED
HELP AWAY FROM YOU?
WHO WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO NEVER COMPLAINED ABOUT ME PANGSEHING HER
JUST TO GO BACK WITH YOU ALL?
WHO WAS THE ONE WHO KEPT TELLING ME TO
GO BACK TO TAMILYN AND BE BFF WITH TAMILYN AGAIN?
WHO WAS THE ONE WHO WAS VERY CLEAR THAT I WAS USING HER BUT DID NOT SAY
A SINGLE WORD?
andrea.
TELL ME WHAT TO CHOOSE NOW.
shucks.im too angry now....
alamaks,
i wasnt too fired up just now.
i was thinking about the fact that i was constantly using andrea...
why am i such a bad friend?
if i offended anyone in this post,
sorry.
tai guo sheng qi with me le.
paiseh.
hm....talked to val and zhekai just now.
did the aniation thing to the vip quite well
YAY!
dunno who vip was,asked zk.
val for ???
hmm...these two days...
yesterday,tuesday,
i skipped cca.
well,not the 1st time i skipped cca.
cca sucks anyways,
i cant even improve,go for what?
but i did not really skip.
hmmm...i was helping the animation mania stuff.
until quite late,decided not to go for cca.
suspected that there was theory.there was.
in the morning,tam gave me,yl and v and cally letter.
i read.
sadly,i wasnt touched...the least bit...
felt suicidal.
and weird.
it was touching but i wasnt touched.
whats worse,
i knew that it IS touching.
v and yl tell me go bff with tam again.
and leave andrea
i mean not so close to andrea
fuckingly pissed.
i dunno why...
v and yl 1-1 talk,
yl wasnt too happy about the letter too...
vinny was the only one happy,
say tam wei da.
yl told me....
in yl's letter,
she wrote:probably,you are right,i shldnt be cutting btwn u and v
when [according to yl] yl didnt tell her anything.
v was quite pissed after reading yl's letter.
she so called scolded yl.
yl didnt care.(for once)
she herself was surprised.
den in art,we did the animation the stuff...
me,t,v and yl were chatting tgt.
wrong.
t,v and yl were chatting tgt.
they sort of walked around.
den i was behind.
hmm,they didnt even know that i was there.
very very upset.
went to andrea there.
she comforted me.
after a LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG ten minutes,
LONG until,words cant describe it.
it seemed a thousand years.
although it was only a ten minute.
then they finally know that i wasnt there.
vinny found out...
tam was talking halfway when she found it out.
VERY VERY VERY VERY dissapointed with tamilyn.
they tried to get me away from andrea.
WHATTHEHECK?
they forgot me,
den want take me away..
WHO AM I TO THEM?
A HARMLESS MOTHER FUCKER WHO THEY CAN TALK TO WHENEVER THEY NEED A SHIT?
BULLSHIT.
B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T.
VERY ANGRY.
tried to smile.
i did one that looked very very very real
crap.
then t,v,yl and me stayed back for the animation thinggy.(do extra)
t and v and hweeting was tgt,
like that oni.
den i on my phone.
FUCK!
too late!
jiajun smsed me,she was in amk hub...
lol!she skipped school...i guess?
WALAO!
i jitao chiong there,she go le,
so i go home.
sian luhhs.
why i so stupid?
haizz.....
made qinghao as my korkor.
yl talked to me,told me her probs.
TODAY,
yl was back with vinny.
they were like asking me to go back to the group of whatever clique blah blah blah.
no fucking shit,i dont go back there!
whatthehell.
at least,i need time bahh~
they say it isnt the same without me.
bullshit.
a LONG ten minutes u know!
you all are still surviving arent you?
if you all think that you all would NEVER EVER pangseh and forget me again,
THEN WHY DID YOU FOUND OUT THAT I WASNT THERE TEN MINUTES LATER?
if you all think that andrea is a liar who wouldnt do me any good,
THEN WHY WAS ANDREA THE ONLY PERSON IN CLASS I FELT THAT I COULD TURN TO,WHEN I
FELT EMO AND SAD?
if you all think that andrea wasnt good enough for me
AND WHY DID ANDREA NEVER SAY A WORD ABOUT ME PANGSEHHING HER TO GO WITH YOU ALL?
IM USING HER BEFORE.
SHE KNEW IT BUT DIDNT SAY ANYTHING.
IM WAY WORSE THAN HER.
WAY WAY WAY WORSE.
IF YOU ALL THINK THAT SHE WOULDNT MAKE A GREATER FRIEND THAN TAMILYN,(no offence to tamilyn)
YOU ALL ARE W-R-O-N-G.
she proved you all wrong.
she proved me wrong.
she let me know that i wasnt alone when i didnt have you guys around me.
she let me understand that someone cares about me,even if the whole world condemned me.
LETS SEE.
WHO WAS THE ONLY ONE I COULD EVER EVER EVER TURN TO WHEN I NEEDED
HELP AWAY FROM YOU?
WHO WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO NEVER COMPLAINED ABOUT ME PANGSEHING HER
JUST TO GO BACK WITH YOU ALL?
WHO WAS THE ONE WHO KEPT TELLING ME TO
GO BACK TO TAMILYN AND BE BFF WITH TAMILYN AGAIN?
WHO WAS THE ONE WHO WAS VERY CLEAR THAT I WAS USING HER BUT DID NOT SAY
A SINGLE WORD?
andrea.
TELL ME WHAT TO CHOOSE NOW.
shucks.im too angry now....
alamaks,
i wasnt too fired up just now.
i was thinking about the fact that i was constantly using andrea...
why am i such a bad friend?
if i offended anyone in this post,
sorry.
tai guo sheng qi with me le.
paiseh.
hm....talked to val and zhekai just now.
did the aniation thing to the vip quite well
YAY!
dunno who vip was,asked zk.
val for ???
Monday, October 26, 2009
hyped up.
i dunno why,i today suddenyl hyper,den suddenly emo.
hmm...i recorded my day in the diary...
i write some unimportant ones here...
no doubt im currently addicted to runescaping and blogging...like duh?!
[shocked that fiona remembers me.i thought she would forget me sehh...SHOCKED]
shits.
i daydreamed again.
24/7 daydreamer.
i mean 18/7 daydreamer.
the other 8 hrs is for sleeping. REALLY dreaming <3
waha!
i talked to myself.
my new found hobby! <3
went to school early,
nicole and i went into school,
in class,
we listened to down and why cry by jay sean.
den hui hu xi de tong(liang jing ru) and boom boom pow.
nicee :D
i decided to be hyped up for the day.
hyper baby mahhs,dun ruin my own reputation.at least in my dearest friends.
vinny asked me to be her lao gong.
= i have lj(andrea said so...==)
so fake sia!
i last time bath with eli,she can help me zuo zheng.
MWAHA!
den the chinese teacher scolded me for not bringing the qiut hcl letter.
a little pissed.
acted ok.
fxcking her all the way.
ashely,yongling and tamilyn played cheat.
only I most guai lor,
*becoming a suck...i know,but NOT suckup.*
i listened to teacher and read the boring book.
went back class,everyone was in class sia!
i mean no absentee.
=sean was absent before i went for chinese.
simple enough.
played sci,pper,stone split with cally and vinny and tamilyn,
(tam help v,i help c)
den zhekai and nicole talked.
the jelly stuff from cally the maggot spurt out.
laughed crazily.
went for recess.
after recess,
played crazily. hmm.....went to mac,still hyper...
den went to bishan park the playground.=i went mac and back to school there the p.g
became abit emo.
i mean alot mre emoer.
diary-ed and reflected.
ALONE.
the rest were in p.g,playing swing.
went wanted a lotus leaf,
but went amk hub,drank drinks and went home.
got a person at tam's blog,sae hurtful words
if u are that person,EFF OFF AND dont ruin her reputation.
she doesnt get any love cause there are people out there constantly hurting her.
she goes for love,and not for sex.
=she is great and doesnt like a person for his looks.
abit pissed.
YAY! im going ayg for handball!training on nov and dec ++ YIPEE!
hmmm..handball issit the interclass game in p6?
if it is,andy should be quite a help.
#$%^&*( kk. b
hmm...i recorded my day in the diary...
i write some unimportant ones here...
no doubt im currently addicted to runescaping and blogging...like duh?!
[shocked that fiona remembers me.i thought she would forget me sehh...SHOCKED]
shits.
i daydreamed again.
24/7 daydreamer.
i mean 18/7 daydreamer.
the other 8 hrs is for sleeping. REALLY dreaming <3
waha!
i talked to myself.
my new found hobby! <3
went to school early,
nicole and i went into school,
in class,
we listened to down and why cry by jay sean.
den hui hu xi de tong(liang jing ru) and boom boom pow.
nicee :D
i decided to be hyped up for the day.
hyper baby mahhs,dun ruin my own reputation.at least in my dearest friends.
vinny asked me to be her lao gong.
= i have lj(andrea said so...==)
so fake sia!
i last time bath with eli,she can help me zuo zheng.
MWAHA!
den the chinese teacher scolded me for not bringing the qiut hcl letter.
a little pissed.
acted ok.
fxcking her all the way.
ashely,yongling and tamilyn played cheat.
only I most guai lor,
*becoming a suck...i know,but NOT suckup.*
i listened to teacher and read the boring book.
went back class,everyone was in class sia!
i mean no absentee.
=sean was absent before i went for chinese.
simple enough.
played sci,pper,stone split with cally and vinny and tamilyn,
(tam help v,i help c)
den zhekai and nicole talked.
the jelly stuff from cally the maggot spurt out.
laughed crazily.
went for recess.
after recess,
played crazily. hmm.....went to mac,still hyper...
den went to bishan park the playground.=i went mac and back to school there the p.g
became abit emo.
i mean alot mre emoer.
diary-ed and reflected.
ALONE.
the rest were in p.g,playing swing.
went wanted a lotus leaf,
but went amk hub,drank drinks and went home.
got a person at tam's blog,sae hurtful words
if u are that person,EFF OFF AND dont ruin her reputation.
she doesnt get any love cause there are people out there constantly hurting her.
she goes for love,and not for sex.
=she is great and doesnt like a person for his looks.
abit pissed.
YAY! im going ayg for handball!training on nov and dec ++ YIPEE!
hmmm..handball issit the interclass game in p6?
if it is,andy should be quite a help.
#$%^&*( kk. b