bad days?

hmm...im having really bad bad bad days.... esp nowadays.
hmm...these two days...
yesterday,tuesday,
i skipped cca.
well,not the 1st time i skipped cca.
cca sucks anyways,
i cant even improve,go for what?
but i did not really skip.
hmmm...i was helping the animation mania stuff.
until quite late,decided not to go for cca.
suspected that there was theory.there was.
in the morning,tam gave me,yl and v and cally letter.
i read.
sadly,i wasnt touched...the least bit...
felt suicidal.
and weird.
it was touching but i wasnt touched.
whats worse,
i knew that it IS touching.
v and yl tell me go bff with tam again.
and leave andrea
i mean not so close to andrea
fuckingly pissed.
i dunno why...
v and yl 1-1 talk,
yl wasnt too happy about the letter too...
vinny was the only one happy,
say tam wei da.
yl told me....
in yl's letter,
she wrote:probably,you are right,i shldnt be cutting btwn u and v
when [according to yl] yl didnt tell her anything.
v was quite pissed after reading yl's letter.
she so called scolded yl.
yl didnt care.(for once)
she herself was surprised.
den in art,we did the animation the stuff...
me,t,v and yl were chatting tgt.
wrong.
t,v and yl were chatting tgt.
they sort of walked around.
den i was behind.
hmm,they didnt even know that i was there.
very very upset.
went to andrea there.
she comforted me.
after a LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG ten minutes,
LONG until,words cant describe it.
it seemed a thousand years.
although it was only a ten minute.
then they finally know that i wasnt there.
vinny found out...
tam was talking halfway when she found it out.
VERY VERY VERY VERY dissapointed with tamilyn.
they tried to get me away from andrea.
WHATTHEHECK?
they forgot me,
den want take me away..
WHO AM I TO THEM?
A HARMLESS MOTHER FUCKER WHO THEY CAN TALK TO WHENEVER THEY NEED A SHIT?
BULLSHIT.
B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T.
VERY ANGRY.
tried to smile.
i did one that looked very very very real
crap.
then t,v,yl and me stayed back for the animation thinggy.(do extra)
t and v and hweeting was tgt,
like that oni.
den i on my phone.
FUCK!
too late!
jiajun smsed me,she was in amk hub...
lol!she skipped school...i guess?
WALAO!
i jitao chiong there,she go le,
so i go home.
sian luhhs.
why i so stupid?
haizz.....
made qinghao as my korkor.
yl talked to me,told me her probs.
TODAY,
yl was back with vinny.
they were like asking me to go back to the group of whatever clique blah blah blah.
no fucking shit,i dont go back there!
whatthehell.
at least,i need time bahh~
they say it isnt the same without me.
bullshit.
a LONG ten minutes u know!
you all are still surviving arent you?




if you all think that you all would NEVER EVER pangseh and forget me again,
THEN WHY DID YOU FOUND OUT THAT I WASNT THERE TEN MINUTES LATER?
if you all think that andrea is a liar who wouldnt do me any good,
THEN WHY WAS ANDREA THE ONLY PERSON IN CLASS I FELT THAT I COULD TURN TO,WHEN I
FELT EMO AND SAD?
if you all think that andrea wasnt good enough for me
AND WHY DID ANDREA NEVER SAY A WORD ABOUT ME PANGSEHHING HER TO GO WITH YOU ALL?
IM USING HER BEFORE.
SHE KNEW IT BUT DIDNT SAY ANYTHING.
IM WAY WORSE THAN HER.
WAY WAY WAY WORSE.

IF YOU ALL THINK THAT SHE WOULDNT MAKE A GREATER FRIEND THAN TAMILYN,(no offence to tamilyn)
YOU ALL ARE W-R-O-N-G.
she proved you all wrong.
she proved me wrong.
she let me know that i wasnt alone when i didnt have you guys around me.
she let me understand that someone cares about me,even if the whole world condemned me.
LETS SEE.


WHO WAS THE ONLY ONE I COULD EVER EVER EVER TURN TO WHEN I NEEDED
HELP AWAY FROM YOU?
WHO WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO NEVER COMPLAINED ABOUT ME PANGSEHING HER
JUST TO GO BACK WITH YOU ALL?
WHO WAS THE ONE WHO KEPT TELLING ME TO
GO BACK TO TAMILYN AND BE BFF WITH TAMILYN AGAIN?
WHO WAS THE ONE WHO WAS VERY CLEAR THAT I WAS USING HER BUT DID NOT SAY
A SINGLE WORD?

andrea.
TELL ME WHAT TO CHOOSE NOW.

shucks.im too angry now....
alamaks,
i wasnt too fired up just now.
i was thinking about the fact that i was constantly using andrea...
why am i such a bad friend?
if i offended anyone in this post,
sorry.
tai guo sheng qi with me le.
paiseh.
hm....talked to val and zhekai just now.
did the aniation thing to the vip quite well
YAY!
dunno who vip was,asked zk.
val for ???

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