It hurts when you could easily forget the memories we shared,
♥
the ones which I remembered even when I didn't want to.
Quotes.
'Missing you isn't the problem, it's wondering if you'll ever come back that's killing me.'
'Sometimes when you sacrifice something special, you’re not really losing it. You’re just passing it on. '
♥-/Increased.Heartbeat
'Missing you isn't the problem, it's wondering if you'll ever come back that's killing me.'
'Sometimes when you sacrifice something special, you’re not really losing it. You’re just passing it on. '
♥-/Increased.Heartbeat
ME.
I'm a simple girl living in a complicated world. I'm friendly and purple-struck. I get high at wrong times and I want to stay like that forever.
I don't do drugs, I'm not in any gang. I'm that normal girl who is on Facebook, Twitter and MSN. Fell out of love and lost trust in it. Fahrenheit's sizzling hot and they burn. I see flames shooting out already.
Screams.
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Thursday, November 26, 2009
>:(
hell manzxc.
damn my stupid brother.
applaud to my geniusity.
he tried to stop me frm playing runescape.
sadly, im not so stupid, in fact, clever :P jkjk
i just clicked all around, found out that he made runescape a non trusted website.
i just had to delete that name: runescape, from that page.
sostupid.
my last day playing runescape?
i shall see how he dies.
>:(
want play with me right?
fine! i jiu feng pei dao di.
:D off to runescape ignoring my good for nothing brother.
HE IS NOW OFFICIALLY MY ARCH-ENEMY.
such a big asshole.
damn my stupid brother.
applaud to my geniusity.
he tried to stop me frm playing runescape.
sadly, im not so stupid, in fact, clever :P jkjk
i just clicked all around, found out that he made runescape a non trusted website.
i just had to delete that name: runescape, from that page.
sostupid.
my last day playing runescape?
i shall see how he dies.
>:(
want play with me right?
fine! i jiu feng pei dao di.
:D off to runescape ignoring my good for nothing brother.
HE IS NOW OFFICIALLY MY ARCH-ENEMY.
such a big asshole.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
twilights
hahas, watched some videos about twilight.
nigahiga and peter chao.
damn funny.
cant upload it up here,
so sorries.
but follow the following link.
not suitable for twilight lovers.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goix7jFXD9Q
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bX-wBa-UJVw
nigahiga and peter chao.
damn funny.
cant upload it up here,
so sorries.
but follow the following link.
not suitable for twilight lovers.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goix7jFXD9Q
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bX-wBa-UJVw
):
sian sia, have been sick these few days.
smsing binglin.
she last night ask me wan play cards at night of the camp anot?
cos she cant sleep..
me too...:x
shuang lahs, can play until so late.
:D
try and escape without seniors noticing.
excited about the camp.
sians. yl nt coming on the 1st day ):
and i dunno how to survive without my dear bed.
):
i will miss the lanqiuhuo hotshot episodes.(nvms, i missed quite alot alr)
and shuang tian zi zun... i missed many):
haiya...
anws, i watched finish my hot shot in youtube alr.
momo love havent all out.
back to the camppp.
i dunno how sleep sia,
having insomnia these few days.
cant sleep until very late.
dad nv scold 2nd bro for playing com until 11.30(watch tv until 1 am. thats it)
and scolded me for being awake at 11pm.
damned.
haizz....
i really wish for another message buddy ...):
and a calling buddy.
someone to call and chat until the morning.
envies my 2nd bro. ):
he can go clubbing. ):
damned.
haiz...
suddenly feel like smsing again ):
urgh!
ahhhh
ahhh
ahhh
ahhh
ahhh
ahhh
ahhh!!!
finally!
something to make me laugh.
went to my bro's blog.
someone wrote: ey bk,
woah, got interview ah?(for job)
tell ur boss tht ur vulgarities are your way to bring the sales up.
(:
laughed.
another one: achmed(thanks,val) and peter chao.
:)
sians. got my packing list for mfcocamp alr.
sian-ded.
ahh, watching viddies,
just played games and bowling with bernice!! <33
luv her to the max.
:)
i miss her :)
parents and bro back from work.
my idiotic bro so freaking asshole.
once come home, DEMAND that i let him use the com.
so brainless.
say tdy is my last day playing runescape.
make me.
asshole.
very pissed nw, talked to yl.
she very sad about no one tell her about chronics.
if im her, den i sad forever lah? isit?
always keep stuff from me.
I HATE MY SCREWED UP LIFE
smsing binglin.
she last night ask me wan play cards at night of the camp anot?
cos she cant sleep..
me too...:x
shuang lahs, can play until so late.
:D
try and escape without seniors noticing.
excited about the camp.
sians. yl nt coming on the 1st day ):
and i dunno how to survive without my dear bed.
):
i will miss the lanqiuhuo hotshot episodes.(nvms, i missed quite alot alr)
and shuang tian zi zun... i missed many):
haiya...
anws, i watched finish my hot shot in youtube alr.
momo love havent all out.
back to the camppp.
i dunno how sleep sia,
having insomnia these few days.
cant sleep until very late.
dad nv scold 2nd bro for playing com until 11.30(watch tv until 1 am. thats it)
and scolded me for being awake at 11pm.
damned.
haizz....
i really wish for another message buddy ...):
and a calling buddy.
someone to call and chat until the morning.
envies my 2nd bro. ):
he can go clubbing. ):
damned.
haiz...
suddenly feel like smsing again ):
urgh!
ahhhh
ahhh
ahhh
ahhh
ahhh
ahhh
ahhh!!!
finally!
something to make me laugh.
went to my bro's blog.
someone wrote: ey bk,
woah, got interview ah?(for job)
tell ur boss tht ur vulgarities are your way to bring the sales up.
(:
laughed.
another one: achmed(thanks,val) and peter chao.
:)
sians. got my packing list for mfcocamp alr.
sian-ded.
ahh, watching viddies,
just played games and bowling with bernice!! <33
luv her to the max.
:)
i miss her :)
parents and bro back from work.
my idiotic bro so freaking asshole.
once come home, DEMAND that i let him use the com.
so brainless.
say tdy is my last day playing runescape.
make me.
asshole.
very pissed nw, talked to yl.
she very sad about no one tell her about chronics.
if im her, den i sad forever lah? isit?
always keep stuff from me.
I HATE MY SCREWED UP LIFE
Friday, November 20, 2009
it isnt impossible. it is just very hard.
hellos!
i was chatting with chronics and tamilyn.
funluhhs.
licy use:mie and mue.
kingian foloed.
yy ask who was going ms chia's wedding,
ki was like:not mue!!!
den i was like:doesnt fit you,ki.
making words longer for no use is tweeting mahs,
den someone though that it was twitter.
=.=
lol..
den tamilyn talked to me...
make me feel very bad...
haiz... but nvms lah,
will be over soon.
she wanted to be like before...
i wanted to too.
can we?
after so many things, she found new frens, me too, can we just go with each other so
closely like before?
i wanted to, she threw away the chance.
and she wants it back.
i dont wanna lose this.
but what can i do?
say hi to her awkwardly?
i dont knw how to like... go with her?
haiya, just an excuse ):
nvms, i will just try den :D
tdy, went out with andrea.
she told me about yl stuff.
tht time, yl said hi to me and i didnt reply.
what was i supposed to say? hi?
hi is ONE word,
den she say i give one word answer
WALAO EH!!!
F UP SIA!!! >:(
this cannot, tht cannot,
or want me to say: hi, how are you doing, im fine, thanks, im listening to ***** music, chatting with blahblah.
need give her detailed answers ah?
WAPIANG!
den she sae cos i listen music den she nv tok to me and tok 2 other pple.
wth?
in tpy or mrt, i listen music she oso got talk to me lors.
giving herself excuses.
hat time in pg,
i nv listen music, she oso tok 2 other pple.
heck crap.
went out with andrea tdy,
VERY VERY VERY VERY FUNNNN!
i thank her for buying warm coke for me for my stupid idiotic throat.
<33 loveees
i was chatting with chronics and tamilyn.
funluhhs.
licy use:mie and mue.
kingian foloed.
yy ask who was going ms chia's wedding,
ki was like:not mue!!!
den i was like:doesnt fit you,ki.
making words longer for no use is tweeting mahs,
den someone though that it was twitter.
=.=
lol..
den tamilyn talked to me...
make me feel very bad...
haiz... but nvms lah,
will be over soon.
she wanted to be like before...
i wanted to too.
can we?
after so many things, she found new frens, me too, can we just go with each other so
closely like before?
i wanted to, she threw away the chance.
and she wants it back.
i dont wanna lose this.
but what can i do?
say hi to her awkwardly?
i dont knw how to like... go with her?
haiya, just an excuse ):
nvms, i will just try den :D
tdy, went out with andrea.
she told me about yl stuff.
tht time, yl said hi to me and i didnt reply.
what was i supposed to say? hi?
hi is ONE word,
den she say i give one word answer
WALAO EH!!!
F UP SIA!!! >:(
this cannot, tht cannot,
or want me to say: hi, how are you doing, im fine, thanks, im listening to ***** music, chatting with blahblah.
need give her detailed answers ah?
WAPIANG!
den she sae cos i listen music den she nv tok to me and tok 2 other pple.
wth?
in tpy or mrt, i listen music she oso got talk to me lors.
giving herself excuses.
hat time in pg,
i nv listen music, she oso tok 2 other pple.
heck crap.
went out with andrea tdy,
VERY VERY VERY VERY FUNNNN!
i thank her for buying warm coke for me for my stupid idiotic throat.
<33 loveees
Thursday, November 19, 2009
): haiyazz..
SIAN AH!!!
im sick.
what a "great" time sia!
tmr going watch movie with andrea dearie <3333333333
YAY!!!
2012?? i think??
yeah.
:D
but i now sick, in the theater,
i cough, everyone go away :x
heng sia, i no fever.
Sians....
coughing lightly
in case i cough out blood. :x
now playing runescape and lf2
great at multitasking :D
YAY!
off to play!,
h.e
im sick.
what a "great" time sia!
tmr going watch movie with andrea dearie <3333333333
YAY!!!
2012?? i think??
yeah.
:D
but i now sick, in the theater,
i cough, everyone go away :x
heng sia, i no fever.
Sians....
coughing lightly
in case i cough out blood. :x
now playing runescape and lf2
great at multitasking :D
YAY!
off to play!,
h.e
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
back...
chatted with tam just now...
haizz....
i really wanna be like before sias....
sian ah....
cos it will never be,especially when she keeps blaming herself on something that is sooo long ago.
it might be, if she stops blaming on herself
and forget everything,
or at least, act like nothing happened.
i really forgot it...
hmm..really.
not lying.
really.
im thinking....
i cant rmb.
anws....
i dunno why hor,
i dont mind being hurt cos of her again...
id rather me myself hurt den her...
how come so weird ah??!!
sian ah!
history repeated it self.
i told andrea everything...
andrea,
THANK YOUS!!!!
<33 ai si ni la!
=love(u) die me.
:D:D:D
just wish that andrea would be with tamilyn...
when she need her....
putting on a happy face.
ANDREAAAAAAAAA,THANKS MUCH!
i will never forget how you stood by me when i needed someone most.
when i hurt you a heavens lot.
when we were besties,i mean NOW!!!
when you helped me...
you comforted HER.
thanks a zillion baby!
i mean mas selamat;lame ass;sister;waterbotter;sotong;tomato;koala bear
i will miss you... <33
anws, i went for random blog visiting, went 1e, went to friends' friend blog.
ended up in a school mate's blog.
thats how i know people but they dont know me :x
it wrote:
if people decides to leave you for good,
you have to let go no matter how hard it is.Even if you have the strength to fight for them, its still beyond our control.
that applies to me,sadly.
i cant live without her(as a friend),but she could live without me... its no use.
just give it up.
bye bye...
haizz....
i really wanna be like before sias....
sian ah....
cos it will never be,especially when she keeps blaming herself on something that is sooo long ago.
it might be, if she stops blaming on herself
and forget everything,
or at least, act like nothing happened.
i really forgot it...
hmm..really.
not lying.
really.
im thinking....
i cant rmb.
anws....
i dunno why hor,
i dont mind being hurt cos of her again...
id rather me myself hurt den her...
how come so weird ah??!!
sian ah!
history repeated it self.
i told andrea everything...
andrea,
THANK YOUS!!!!
<33 ai si ni la!
=love(u) die me.
:D:D:D
just wish that andrea would be with tamilyn...
when she need her....
putting on a happy face.
ANDREAAAAAAAAA,THANKS MUCH!
i will never forget how you stood by me when i needed someone most.
when i hurt you a heavens lot.
when we were besties,i mean NOW!!!
when you helped me...
you comforted HER.
thanks a zillion baby!
i mean mas selamat;lame ass;sister;waterbotter;sotong;tomato;koala bear
i will miss you... <33
anws, i went for random blog visiting, went 1e, went to friends' friend blog.
ended up in a school mate's blog.
thats how i know people but they dont know me :x
it wrote:
if people decides to leave you for good,
you have to let go no matter how hard it is.Even if you have the strength to fight for them, its still beyond our control.
that applies to me,sadly.
i cant live without her(as a friend),but she could live without me... its no use.
just give it up.
bye bye...
Sunday, November 15, 2009
hmm...
i now feeling very weird . again.
i decided not to be so emo anymore
:D
haha!
playing runescape.
vinny like never play already.
haiz.z..
bought 1 ada pickaxe for my bro.
and i kept the iron pickaxe tht vinny gimme.
:D
just went church,very bored.
listened to music when the preacher preach.
i know i shldnt do that.
but i will sleep if i dont.
my father want me to baptist now.
den i was like WTH??
at least auntie joanne understand me.
know that i not so trust God yet.
and i dunno the meaning.
haizz....= =
sian ah.
even shermaine havent baptist yet den he wan me.
walan.
haiz...
and my 2nd bro dyed his hair into reddish brown and pierced his 1st dear earhole.
he dowan my father know.
eat shit sia.
just close the hole lah.
everyone but my father know.
haizz.
den he very sick.
tdy when he going church.
he told me a joke.
not really a joke lehh.
its sick, and offends people.
he cant tell anyone but me.
cos the other fam members will hit it etc.
tsk.
haiya,its really sick,don rite here bah~ i now listening 2 songs and rsing.
:D:D:D byes
i decided not to be so emo anymore
:D
haha!
playing runescape.
vinny like never play already.
haiz.z..
bought 1 ada pickaxe for my bro.
and i kept the iron pickaxe tht vinny gimme.
:D
just went church,very bored.
listened to music when the preacher preach.
i know i shldnt do that.
but i will sleep if i dont.
my father want me to baptist now.
den i was like WTH??
at least auntie joanne understand me.
know that i not so trust God yet.
and i dunno the meaning.
haizz....= =
sian ah.
even shermaine havent baptist yet den he wan me.
walan.
haiz...
and my 2nd bro dyed his hair into reddish brown and pierced his 1st dear earhole.
he dowan my father know.
eat shit sia.
just close the hole lah.
everyone but my father know.
haizz.
den he very sick.
tdy when he going church.
he told me a joke.
not really a joke lehh.
its sick, and offends people.
he cant tell anyone but me.
cos the other fam members will hit it etc.
tsk.
haiya,its really sick,don rite here bah~ i now listening 2 songs and rsing.
:D:D:D byes
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
emotionless.
i nw feeling very emo...
just nw talked to tam,den she had to go.
haizz...
its 7+ and i havent eat yet.
i have not appetite at all.
once in uh...5 years.
when i was in p1,i vomited and lost my appitite :D
that was looong ago anws.
sian ah! i dowan go co tmr sia.
after talking to tam,
i had been thinking.
do you even understand me?
do you even know what i really wanted?
do you even know how i felt?
no.
if you said yes,
thats bull mudahh shit.
very complicated nw sias.
i dowan to talk to anyone in 1e except for licy and andrea.
bored of life.
again.
i feel like ive done everything and im bored of it.
how did i ever went on a year with a person who dont even know me?
so complicated.
i just wanna get away from you.
both of you.
just nw talked to tam,den she had to go.
haizz...
its 7+ and i havent eat yet.
i have not appetite at all.
once in uh...5 years.
when i was in p1,i vomited and lost my appitite :D
that was looong ago anws.
sian ah! i dowan go co tmr sia.
after talking to tam,
i had been thinking.
do you even understand me?
do you even know what i really wanted?
do you even know how i felt?
no.
if you said yes,
thats bull mudahh shit.
very complicated nw sias.
i dowan to talk to anyone in 1e except for licy and andrea.
bored of life.
again.
i feel like ive done everything and im bored of it.
how did i ever went on a year with a person who dont even know me?
so complicated.
i just wanna get away from you.
both of you.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
letting go might not be so bad..
haiz...read tam's blog...
my feeling went straight down.
how i wished andrea was here right now...
how i wished i wanted to talk to someone.
ytd,wasnt so fun anws.
vinny emoed abit.
which was superly unusual.
i didnt even get anything nice.
i stil wanted to like shop for clothes.
left with no money.
sadded.
so pathetic.
haizz...
tam and vinny go first.
me and yl chatted.
spent QUALITY time tgt.
she told me her probs,i told her mine.
tam now want leave the group.
well,i left long ago.
hmm...on that day when they forgot me completely after 10 min.
tam tot tht im in their group.
nope.
she should have been with vinny and yongling.
in the first place...
totally not with me at all.
vinny brought to her laughter,me and yl--emoness.
fuckit.
me and yl chatted about it.
read tam's blog.
i dont noe what to sae.
this time is she really going?
i thought to myself.
actually,the main reason i left the group,
was not because i was afraid to be hurt again.
but was so that t,v, and yl could spend more time tgt and i could spend more time with
other people,esp andrea.
now she is leaving her own grp.
hmm..
weird.
i will miss her...
to tamilyn:
if someone asked me who were the top 2 people
i would have thanked from the bottom of my heart,
it is you.(and 1 more person)
you listened to me when i needed someone.
and everything you did,
helped me in everything in the sec1 year.
i dont take it to heart whether you hurt me anot,
cos the hurt that you got was much more than mine.
and because of the hurt you got,
allowed me to think twice in everything.
friendship and relationship.
im alr over that time.....
if it is not for you,i would have been hurt more deeply.
i realised that no love is forever.
you helped me in rejecting people easily.
easier den before.
you helped me....
everytime.
you listened to me,gave me advice etc.
and because of you,
i had a chance to be a matchmaker and to fall in and out of love.
this time round,
i hope that i would be ur listening ear and would be ale to give u good
advice about any and everything.
i will never forget u in my lifetime.
byes...i will miss u..
-xingan
my feeling went straight down.
how i wished andrea was here right now...
how i wished i wanted to talk to someone.
ytd,wasnt so fun anws.
vinny emoed abit.
which was superly unusual.
i didnt even get anything nice.
i stil wanted to like shop for clothes.
left with no money.
sadded.
so pathetic.
haizz...
tam and vinny go first.
me and yl chatted.
spent QUALITY time tgt.
she told me her probs,i told her mine.
tam now want leave the group.
well,i left long ago.
hmm...on that day when they forgot me completely after 10 min.
tam tot tht im in their group.
nope.
she should have been with vinny and yongling.
in the first place...
totally not with me at all.
vinny brought to her laughter,me and yl--emoness.
fuckit.
me and yl chatted about it.
read tam's blog.
i dont noe what to sae.
this time is she really going?
i thought to myself.
actually,the main reason i left the group,
was not because i was afraid to be hurt again.
but was so that t,v, and yl could spend more time tgt and i could spend more time with
other people,esp andrea.
now she is leaving her own grp.
hmm..
weird.
i will miss her...
to tamilyn:
if someone asked me who were the top 2 people
i would have thanked from the bottom of my heart,
it is you.(and 1 more person)
you listened to me when i needed someone.
and everything you did,
helped me in everything in the sec1 year.
i dont take it to heart whether you hurt me anot,
cos the hurt that you got was much more than mine.
and because of the hurt you got,
allowed me to think twice in everything.
friendship and relationship.
im alr over that time.....
if it is not for you,i would have been hurt more deeply.
i realised that no love is forever.
you helped me in rejecting people easily.
easier den before.
you helped me....
everytime.
you listened to me,gave me advice etc.
and because of you,
i had a chance to be a matchmaker and to fall in and out of love.
this time round,
i hope that i would be ur listening ear and would be ale to give u good
advice about any and everything.
i will never forget u in my lifetime.
byes...i will miss u..
-xingan
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